https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe have you heard THAT crazy menhera?.. ja CafeLog v5.75 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00126.html Mon, 04 May 2026 04:05:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00125.html CAT are you alive??Yeah just lately busy with random stuff, mostly sleeping to be honest... skipping days awaiting the moment guess im gonna call it now "The Moment", playing with the Dolls and Troubleshooting stuff a bit in the PSOBB server, many Japanese are joining so I'm accomodating to help them a bit and play with them too, haven't played the game in a while so I'm also fooling around with them in their parties for some free levels.Other than that, busy with the AI setting up the RF server, very very slowly tho....there arent any real game breaking bug but there are a few extremelly annoying small ones I have to take care off before opening it to the public.At least a big hurdle I was facing with the setup is solved so now you can easily setup the game as soon as I give you access to the client and patches. Need to make the website and the registration flows tho, and there's a lot of trash i have to clean in the ancient MSSQL databasesAnd that's about it so far Mon, 04 May 2026 02:02:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00124.html Yeah as the title says, is not like I'm gonna stop writing but initially the main topic of this blog was to portray myself as a schizo menhera ranting and screaming to everything, but this is also coming to and end, as the years pass is not like things get better in a fairy tale kind of ending is just that eventually you learn to navigate the hell around you without getting burnt at all.Over the past few years , and specially this year all I can say is that it has felt like an insane boot-camp to learn about everything and then debunk myself with the opposite of the ideas i learned, which turned to be wrong in many ways.For example in many previous posts i wrote about famous youtubers, people from the politics i was following, commentators like Alex Jones, etc etc. Then suddenly I began to notice a weird pattern, and the usual pattern and the way the discourse changed was because of what? of course, it all changed the moment they began to speak about Donald Trump and the whole facade they had already carefully prepared of being scholars and 'smart' fell apart pretty quickly. And in a similar way to pretty much...everything I had followed in youtube over the last couple of years, in fact my youtube feed is totally useless now !!You might not like him (probably you don't because I know the public that visits this blog and their goals) but the Donald is a paradigm shift entirely, I never seem a person to live in the heads of so many people rent-free and actually CHANGING the dynamic of the world, is like someone added nitro to the engines of the history and now we are traveling at cruise speed. I've been also following A LOT the movements on the Iran war because as you know the whole Iran debacle is connected with the ousting of the corrupt government that stole my home country which is Venezuela, thanks to the Donald and the january 3rd operations this is disappearing. Will be forever thankful.So what happens now? Not much really but I guess we can say goodbye to the crazy CATTTT alter-ego as is not really needed anymore but I gotta admit in my daily life my internal monologue is still like that is just that i guess we are 'both' paying way too much attention now before screaming and ranting??Could be! but I'm just feeling a little bit more grounded lately like in a straight line, the environment around me completely decided to oust me of everything too so in the silence it is easier to think in a much more clear way many things. In fact, now I require silence, like....total silence that not even the computer fan in the room must be heard only open the window and let the little sparrows chirp around and think....think...think so much that feels like in my mind im literally traveling across the world, learning and waiting for the moment to do the escape I want to do for the better.And because of that with the exeption that i'm kinda NEET'ing my days lately as I'm just making time playing with my usual gacha games and such as i've said before i'm just sitting down at an airport terminal waiting for the announcement to go to the gate that will lead me to a huge change in my life.So i'm fine but honestly I don't have many interesting things to tell you about lately, since people love gossiping, drama, stuff i could stir up some drama I love scandal after all!! but right now is just not the moment.Let's see what happens in the 2nd half of the year I might return and laugh at this post i wrote and say "whoa i was such a retard for writing this!!" and we contineu as usual or.....could be that I'm gonna come to tell you about something completely different...Since I don't have control to decide the outcomes at this point in my life all I can do is wait so let's wait a little bit and see what happens shall we? Fri, 17 Apr 2026 19:33:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00123.html Thu, 09 Apr 2026 00:46:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00122.html CAAAATTT we are returning to the old blog!?! wha happened to the misskey instance???Well... wanna know the truth?? it was actually pretty boring and resource intensive leaving it running unatended was eating up to 30+ GB of the main server SSD with very low quality memes, while at the same time being surrounded by demoralized supposedly nazis that ended up being exactly the same as the commies, troonies and faggots we actually try to avoid at all costs just in a lamer package.The drawings and illustrations were the most interesting thing tbh but those were mostly rule 34 stuff too so after seeing only R34 stuff it begins to get very boring and annoying, and the few good quality illustrations were actually copied from X! (go figure).So at the end it was just a echo chamber full of demoralized deviants and not very interesting, people will bash X for many things but one thing is for certain and this is something I had to learn too recently, unlike with Facebook that I deleted many moons ago and never returned with X i had no choice but to once again remake a new account because is the only place where I can get updated on the news as they are happening, for example the current events happening with the US and Venezuela as as you know i'm very interested about in the posibility to return to my home country, enjoy the daily explosion videos of the Iran war, people making fun of libtards, bashing anime tourists and gatekeeping them to death, enjoying a lot of dolls frontline posts, and many other interesting topics. So at the end X is a necessity these days at least in the way the internet is currently configured.but CAAAAAAATTTW WHAT ABOUT THE LIBERTY AND SUCH??? The idea and the systems for fediverse is not bad is just that is totally controlled by the people i really dislike a lot so you really cannot connect with anyone there, the only way to 'connect' and IM GONNA BIG QUOTE THIS "CONNECT" would be to lobotomize your own brain and decide that theres no hope no fix and you want to kill anything in this world that brings happiness or offers beauty of any kind (sounds familiar?)So when you sit down and balance out the cost/benefit of the thing and we are not talking about money here, just talking about pure entertainment value you are receiving is very low for the amount of computing resources you are using up.So in the meantime let's enjoy the good old blog again but im gonna be able to embed stuff from X again so let's begin :)# Fri, 03 Apr 2026 13:40:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00121.html Wed, 18 Mar 2026 03:19:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00120.html Well that escalated quickly CAT....Looks like we will be hosting the server back in America sooner than expected....My god what an insane world!!! we are going to become the 51st State?!?!?!Good News Exists?!?!?, Yes CATTT they do exist too!! the chud lost the bet once again?!?!My god hes losing the bets!!!Incredible news im very happy!!! CAAAAATTTTTT Im hAPPY thAT YoU ARe HaPPY too!!Its a matter of time now.... Tue, 17 Mar 2026 07:53:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00119.html CAAATT what about the games and the plans for the servers and whatnot!?!?Well games I've been playing mostly Girls Frontline 1 and 2 and I've been having a lot of fun watching their stories and campaigns the concept of the dolls are adorable and very interesting with so many personalities and their universe is very Metal Gear Like mixed with Command and Conquer vibes so very entertaining overall..The first game is very old but its very good and the 2nd game, well you've seem me posting a lot of pictures and videos on the SNS in the main site and here on the blog it just blows my mind because I was looking for a game with substance for a very long time and finally found it.A cute game, with very grounded stories, no weird woke shit, a lot of fan service, weapons and military stuff, scifi and wasteland settings, very interesting characters and very unique from each other so very happy with it.It was a very pleasant surprise as I almost had given up on gaming in the recent years.Then I also played a bit Arknights Endfield, this game is a little bit mid to me is a little stale but the characters are cuteI'm usually playing this one when the recovery time on both GFLs is depleted, maybe this game will become more interesting with more updates, for now it just sells very nice graphics but thats about it. Other than that what about PSO the server and such CAT??the PSOBB server continues working as usual, and I believe more than ever because there's no other place where you can play the original game anymore, I've been checking on google and seems to be the initial bans and shadowban the server website suffered are lifted from the initial wave of rage and hate from the usual suspects trying to cancel the project have receeded.So more people are visiting there has been some movement, but sadly, very very little we are talking about 1~5 player max tops. But those few players i'm confident they are playing the proper game so I hope they are having a good time.As for the Lineage server and the RF server those are still in the limbo because i've been so busy with paperwork for the eventual return to my home country that I really havent had much mental power to dedicate to those, but i'm preparing offsite backups to revisit their server and clients soon.Maybe this year we might see something depending on what happens and I dont have to do several emergency visits to the airport to organize everything back and forthBecause of all this the PSOBB server is also working kinda in standard mode without many events this year I plan to just run the Easter, Halloween and Xmas because of how busy everything is atm.Some PSOBB servers have also appeared in Brazil, US, Mexico and other places running newserv but they all face the same issue as this one there's just no people, we are talking about a game and a game series that has become 2nd to none for SEGASo unless they suddenly announce a new Phantasy Star game which i really doubt, the kind of people we have in the usual old tired circles are beyond cooked already so there's no really much to pull from for a bigger multiplayer experience.The cool thing about this game is that is a single player experience mostly allowing you to get to the end-game on your own without much effort.This is why I have my doubts with the other 2 projects as both of those require more people to play, at the very least 20ish players average for Lineage and 40ish for RFThose numbers are difficult to fill for such obscure and niche games, but well since the servers are free I might still open them and leave them running with 0~1 players on all the time, they cost me nothing since we are all selfhosted now.This is why we are having now the social network on the main website I need to do some final adjustments but we can have something new to offer for the newer generations with the zoomers and alphasskibbidis wanting to rediscover old games and the internet.So I continue hosting all these systems for them gladly, i'm tired of the old people I want new people. Sat, 14 Mar 2026 22:58:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00118.html CAATTT regarding Venezuela and the latest news???You'd be surprise CAT but i'm actually very hopeful for it, I gotta admit that I'm almost blind hopeful things are gonna change for the better, and maybe theres a posibility to return to my home country again.But as usual the curse of that country is stronger than ever so the demoralization incresed a lot (you might have noticed i'm using this word more often but it is what best describes everything i'm seeing everywhere)There are many factors of power that don't want the transition to become a US territory to happen, why you might ask?, well it's very simple CAT, imagine being formerly from a 3rd world shithole and suddenly overnight they take over your country and you become a de facto 1st world country by becoming annexed into the United States territories so your passport, identity, papers, etc. Become US ones.It is a big deal and considering the world we are living on is so full of people with a lot of resentment and envy due socialism and leftism eating them all to the core, the fact a bunch of people they used to make fun of their diaspora by abusing them and forcing them to become uber eats and low paying jobs becoming americans + having the richest territory in the world is.......they cant.....they gonna explode of rage..the rage and the envy will make them go kaboom from inside over and over... so they have to try to stop this from happening both inside and outside the country with several smear campaigns and a horrible amount of fog of war. But we are very hopeful its gonna happen at the end, and that will be my comeback to be able to be rich again + the US citizen I always wanted to be its maybe the only chance I have in my lifetime to do a 180 degree turn to the life-game table and bank on it !!!So let's look forward to it!!CAATTT We are coming back to our hometown???Mybe Cat....but in a completely different situation for the better Sat, 14 Mar 2026 22:50:00 +0900 https://asdf.kiyomizu.moe/archives/art/00117.html CAAAATTTTTTT what has been happening??? Well well first of all we've became on the main kiyomizu.moe site a pseudo social-network in this huge experiment to extend this little internet island as much as possible. It has been based on Misskey and we are connected to the Fediverse.Yet I must admit, I was hoping to see a little more variety than on Twitter when I deleted it a while back, but sadly in these kind of spaces is a hotpot of all kinds of leftoids, nazis (same thing) and the usual fagottry but increased x2000 times.The amount of demoralized people there is incredible, in Twitter I had to deal with just being a ghost and my tweets having no reach at all due to shadow ban but on this side, while it's entertaining if you really like anime and cute illustrations or hentai/rule34 stuff theres no much else to see.So is not very interesting, but I'm trying to connect to a more variety of servers on the fediverse to increase the range of topics to cover, I don't know PHOTOGRAPHY MAYBE!?! anything!! lolChecking the logs I also notice that the amount of people (those interacting in the nearest ring to us) are between 20~30 people give or take...but no more than that...And of course they just keep repeating in the same way as the faggots they are same old tired messages of death to USA, death to Israel, death to the World, etc.Well I have bad news for them...So makes me wonder that probably all these people are maybe very young ones probably in their 20s with some in their 30s with heavy developmental disorders.So we are kinda back in the blog again because I cant really express myself much there either, I mostly share with them cute drawings and GFL stuff because there's no really substance for anything elseIt all comes back to the same topic I was writing lately hereFirst, the internet is becoming more and more emptier, there are no people around and those who do are highly disturbed/demoralized people that will attempt to turn you into a faggot, a leftoid, a blackpilled imbecile or everything at once. Definitively not something you want SO CAAAAATTTT WHAT NOW!? You Plan to keep this going???Yeah it's a useful application after all I'm still trying to get the most of it it's also a nice practice being the most complex webapp we've hosted here so far so I'm learning a lot with it on the technical side.I will talk about the technical changes later on...However I wanted to share this today, I decided to also delete my discord a while back because I grew tired of many bad memories in there as usual and like in the usual tradition of deleting everything every 2~3 years this one was long overdue.Yet I notice people come to this blog to see me rant and yell and SCREAM and curse at everything!! I guess it's a very sick kind of entertainment that you aren't going to see anymore moving forward here so if that was your main drive you know where the door is.Good RiddanceAND HOW ABOUT YOU CAT!?Me?.... I'm fine CAT I've been.........thinking a lot.......a lot indeed on the things I've did people i interacted with, stuff i've said once including old rants in this blog and whatnot.And you know what?...theres no point CAT so we will have to continue being ultra selfish because out there is really fucked up... I tried my best to understand many people and found only demoralized creeps with horrible fetishes, addicts to drugs, porn, booze, etc.So everyone wants to just "NPC" themselves to death now? okay good for them, not for me, I will continue my solitude as usual now here on my little internet island , and I think more than ever I think the key right now for you to live a good life is to be as pragmatic and cunning as you can and if possible just step over anyone to achieve your goals, everyone decided to lower their status to being only simple pieces of meat for exchange??, so then, pieces of meat they will become..no more nor lessWhat a shame really CAT....Yes its tragic but it is what it is currently the way the world is becomingSo please take care of yourself at any cost Sat, 14 Mar 2026 22:28:00 +0900