Hells Kitchen
Speaking of more cooked stuff, that brings me to the Normies I've noticed during this months specially as I had to actually go out more after being locked in my home like a NEET since 2020 like I went out of a nuclear fallout shelter of sorts...
I was completely lost but I'm noticing the people around me being more heartless than before, like....what is the feeling of guilt?? and this is something i'm noticing everywhere now more than ever, if you ever need help these days.
You are up for a very bad time as people are throwing smoke bombs and trying to play nice until they all dissapear when things "seems like" might go wrong in any way....then you will be left out with the weight to fix on your own.
You are effetively alone, and at the same time you are surrounded by pricks that wants to see you fail and probably die, if anything maybe they are happy if you can kill yourself as well....
And I had some of those episodes happening to me, there have been days like a virus that you actually feel like killing yourself due how lonely the experience is and even if you make the effort to try to be nice then you find people just wanting for some reason to just see you fail and suffer..
But all this is also coated in a veil of fakeness and niceness that feels so fucking wrong it feels more staged than before but it all feels like you are walking on eggshells or they might pull out a knife and attack you right on the spot...
You see the weird sights, the weird eyes staring at you, and you begin to wonder...
Why is he looking at me like that? Why is she looking at me like that? Why are they looking at me top to bottom like this weird feeling of getting checked up to the milimeter? Can't we all just focus on going to a cute restaurant and have a meal???
Makes you wonder
But then my brother came up to me and told me "haven't you noticed? people always has been like that since forever, or you forgot about it???"
With all these experiences ive beeen totally clueless maybe I am a NEET of sorts or like a Hikkikomori
But one thing is for certain it is, very , very disturbing for me what im seeing out there...
I was completely lost but I'm noticing the people around me being more heartless than before, like....what is the feeling of guilt?? and this is something i'm noticing everywhere now more than ever, if you ever need help these days.
You are up for a very bad time as people are throwing smoke bombs and trying to play nice until they all dissapear when things "seems like" might go wrong in any way....then you will be left out with the weight to fix on your own.
You are effetively alone, and at the same time you are surrounded by pricks that wants to see you fail and probably die, if anything maybe they are happy if you can kill yourself as well....
And I had some of those episodes happening to me, there have been days like a virus that you actually feel like killing yourself due how lonely the experience is and even if you make the effort to try to be nice then you find people just wanting for some reason to just see you fail and suffer..
But all this is also coated in a veil of fakeness and niceness that feels so fucking wrong it feels more staged than before but it all feels like you are walking on eggshells or they might pull out a knife and attack you right on the spot...
You see the weird sights, the weird eyes staring at you, and you begin to wonder...
Why is he looking at me like that? Why is she looking at me like that? Why are they looking at me top to bottom like this weird feeling of getting checked up to the milimeter? Can't we all just focus on going to a cute restaurant and have a meal???
Makes you wonder
But then my brother came up to me and told me "haven't you noticed? people always has been like that since forever, or you forgot about it???"
With all these experiences ive beeen totally clueless maybe I am a NEET of sorts or like a Hikkikomori
But one thing is for certain it is, very , very disturbing for me what im seeing out there...
