Fixed the Stupid Blog
CAAAATTTT WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE BLOG!!!!?!?!?!?
Nothing!!! I just finished fixing this piece of shit after moving it to the new host....
All the pictures should be working now too and reshuffled some of the categories i had a bunch of crap here
Looking back at my first posts I'm actually laughing now how many psyops I kept falling for, right now is all much more quiet
BUT CAT ARE YOU OKAY FOR REAL!?! YOu've changed!!!
Yes!! I'm actually much more quieter now, after the chain of bad stuff that happened the last couple of months was like a final nail on the coffin
It would be unfair to say that I lost faith in humanity but theres also the reality that it's very very VERY difficult more than ever to find the decent people
You really have to look inside the haystack for that needle.... you have to be really really careful with who you are dealing with, mostly to avoid getting kidnapped and raped as probably was gonna happen to me had I continued ignoring the red flags that kept appearing
And you wanna know how I got tricked at first? this person was supposed to be a 'based' 'right winger' in the most classic trojan horse style turned out to be a freak just like any other unhinged 'leftoid'
So now I just hate everyone equally, in fact is one of the reasons I decided to step back from anything political now, i came up to the conclusion that they are making everyone play this macabre game of division but at the same time rotting their brains out like theres no tomorrow equally and turned everyone into heartless beings.
At the end we achieved the infamous "equality" ..... in everything bad
CAT....I ....UGH....
Don't worry about that!! I'm fine and nothing happened, and believe me, deleting all your social networks (all of them for real) it's very very interesting experiement i recommend, is like you remove a huge speaker that was blasting at full volume behind you.
And be careful out there with who you hang out with....I'm serious
Nothing!!! I just finished fixing this piece of shit after moving it to the new host....
All the pictures should be working now too and reshuffled some of the categories i had a bunch of crap here
Looking back at my first posts I'm actually laughing now how many psyops I kept falling for, right now is all much more quiet
BUT CAT ARE YOU OKAY FOR REAL!?! YOu've changed!!!
Yes!! I'm actually much more quieter now, after the chain of bad stuff that happened the last couple of months was like a final nail on the coffin
It would be unfair to say that I lost faith in humanity but theres also the reality that it's very very VERY difficult more than ever to find the decent people
You really have to look inside the haystack for that needle.... you have to be really really careful with who you are dealing with, mostly to avoid getting kidnapped and raped as probably was gonna happen to me had I continued ignoring the red flags that kept appearing
And you wanna know how I got tricked at first? this person was supposed to be a 'based' 'right winger' in the most classic trojan horse style turned out to be a freak just like any other unhinged 'leftoid'
So now I just hate everyone equally, in fact is one of the reasons I decided to step back from anything political now, i came up to the conclusion that they are making everyone play this macabre game of division but at the same time rotting their brains out like theres no tomorrow equally and turned everyone into heartless beings.
At the end we achieved the infamous "equality" ..... in everything bad
CAT....I ....UGH....
Don't worry about that!! I'm fine and nothing happened, and believe me, deleting all your social networks (all of them for real) it's very very interesting experiement i recommend, is like you remove a huge speaker that was blasting at full volume behind you.
And be careful out there with who you hang out with....I'm serious
Kiyomizu Status
Well with all the rants over I wanted to write a bit regarding kiyomizu and the stuff im hosting here so lets start
The PSOBB server
The PSOBB server continues to work as usual and has been doing so for the past year already?! The machine has been working just fine and the server process havent crashed once, as for players the traffic is very little I am aware that some players are entering in the nights but from what i see on the logs are every a few weeks at most.
Google has finally indexed the server after the domain being blacklisted by the boycotters a while ago, moreover since the resources it consumes are so low theres no problem in keeping it alive for the time being.
Right now the community of classic PSO players is probably at 100 players at most if not less, so im not surprised this poor game is on the verge of being forgotten
Then comes the Promise Server
You might have noticed it's the lastest server to open and is actually a very long work to make it happen starting with the fact I had to actually pay to acquire the files after testing them in a near-retail server earlier this year, we saw peaks of 500ish players playing at one time, for such an old game like Lineage II thats huge and the game felt super alive in-game I actually wrote about it in previous posts.
Fast forward today I acquired the files a while ago and after dealing with insane license issues i finally set up the server, currently is in a open beta test as im still wiping and restarting the game unlike PSO which runs without issues on its little linux box, the L2 server is a legacy app so required a lot of infrastructure to make it happen, needs a database server, a game server, web server and a balancer server, on top of requiring a proper account creation flow it cannot work like PSO does where you write the ID/PWD on the login and you are good to go.
So as you can imagine this is the one that has taken the most time for me to implement, some of the preliminary work was already done with the beta of the RF Online server which is still coming at a certain point too so I wasnt as clueless as I thought, the AI helped GREATLY to make this job faster as this one was a totally 1 person endeavour.
As soon I fix the issues with the mail servers the Promise Server will be opening to the public in the coming days.
The PSOBB server
The PSOBB server continues to work as usual and has been doing so for the past year already?! The machine has been working just fine and the server process havent crashed once, as for players the traffic is very little I am aware that some players are entering in the nights but from what i see on the logs are every a few weeks at most.
Google has finally indexed the server after the domain being blacklisted by the boycotters a while ago, moreover since the resources it consumes are so low theres no problem in keeping it alive for the time being.
Right now the community of classic PSO players is probably at 100 players at most if not less, so im not surprised this poor game is on the verge of being forgotten
Then comes the Promise Server
You might have noticed it's the lastest server to open and is actually a very long work to make it happen starting with the fact I had to actually pay to acquire the files after testing them in a near-retail server earlier this year, we saw peaks of 500ish players playing at one time, for such an old game like Lineage II thats huge and the game felt super alive in-game I actually wrote about it in previous posts.
Fast forward today I acquired the files a while ago and after dealing with insane license issues i finally set up the server, currently is in a open beta test as im still wiping and restarting the game unlike PSO which runs without issues on its little linux box, the L2 server is a legacy app so required a lot of infrastructure to make it happen, needs a database server, a game server, web server and a balancer server, on top of requiring a proper account creation flow it cannot work like PSO does where you write the ID/PWD on the login and you are good to go.
So as you can imagine this is the one that has taken the most time for me to implement, some of the preliminary work was already done with the beta of the RF Online server which is still coming at a certain point too so I wasnt as clueless as I thought, the AI helped GREATLY to make this job faster as this one was a totally 1 person endeavour.
As soon I fix the issues with the mail servers the Promise Server will be opening to the public in the coming days.
Summer??
Well that was my summer so far ....
Im shocked, im shocked in a very bad way with everything and i'm honestly very tired, this insanity started back in 2020 and as the years pass I notice everything more unbearable, people are becoming unberable for me.
I cannot play the pretend game fo much more longer I instantly see the bullshit happening in front of me and i call it out and i get in troubles.
Its a stage a macabre stage I don't want to participate in this play... but i'm here and I must continue watching and undertanding (understanding what???)
Of the few things that still bring me joy, well tinkering with the computer is fun, and also watching anime becoming now my de facto way to escape or at least 'disconnect' as i can't really disconnect with the computer as much anymore and this is something the AI cant help with.
I need to resume my Piano lerning classes, and maybe begin to give it a try to the tracker music i wanted to make.
I need to also stop worrying for stuff out of my control, and my family and their bad decisions i cannot do anything so i need to step back and stop trying to fix stuff, i need to understand that im not here to fix things but to watch and learn.
Likewise with everything and everyone else even if they are heartless beings, i need to finish to come up in terms with solitude as i need to prepare myself for my future embracing it even more.
Theres a lot to learn still i'm a little bit overwhelmed but well I continue with the usual struggles.
And well that's about all i wanted to talk about at least to recover the blog a bit, the pictures are still messed up here and there but working on fixing them.
Im shocked, im shocked in a very bad way with everything and i'm honestly very tired, this insanity started back in 2020 and as the years pass I notice everything more unbearable, people are becoming unberable for me.
I cannot play the pretend game fo much more longer I instantly see the bullshit happening in front of me and i call it out and i get in troubles.
Its a stage a macabre stage I don't want to participate in this play... but i'm here and I must continue watching and undertanding (understanding what???)
Of the few things that still bring me joy, well tinkering with the computer is fun, and also watching anime becoming now my de facto way to escape or at least 'disconnect' as i can't really disconnect with the computer as much anymore and this is something the AI cant help with.
I need to resume my Piano lerning classes, and maybe begin to give it a try to the tracker music i wanted to make.
I need to also stop worrying for stuff out of my control, and my family and their bad decisions i cannot do anything so i need to step back and stop trying to fix stuff, i need to understand that im not here to fix things but to watch and learn.
Likewise with everything and everyone else even if they are heartless beings, i need to finish to come up in terms with solitude as i need to prepare myself for my future embracing it even more.
Theres a lot to learn still i'm a little bit overwhelmed but well I continue with the usual struggles.
And well that's about all i wanted to talk about at least to recover the blog a bit, the pictures are still messed up here and there but working on fixing them.
AI overlord
I decided with the stuff I learned in the course to make a small Homelab as I'm starting to see patterns that might jeopardize even more the only outlet I have left which is the internet and as I dont have SNS anymore I need to be as self sufficient as possible.
So i created a virtual host and embraced the future of virtualization for everything while at the same time dabbling with the AI
You guys know evry well i was anti-AI before but now my view has changed entirely after all this chain of horrible epxeriences on top of being ALONE when a technical issue happens, nobody wants to help anyone these days not even teaching to code a simple script.
So I decided to give it a try and OH BOY it helped me out not only to setup a stupid game server but helped me learn about firewalls (iptables of all things), databases MSSQL what is a trigger? a stored procedure??, continue improving my skils in perl and help me create bridge scripts, recreate and entire cypher for passwords written and left to rot in python until a working perl function...on top of also telling me to ask more questions.
Im using the openai oss-20b model which is open source and runs locally on your PC, i decided to take the risk and get more memory to run this thing it runs very slow to be honest like 2 or 3 words/tokens per second but is enough to help me power through anything, all this happened because I was left totally on my own.
So now I can see it as a tool that might allow me to actually if shits hits the fan and i cant find a job on software or systems anymore (thanks to it but also thanks to the assholes around) at least I have a tool that can help me do the heavy lifting with things and concepts i still cant grasp very well..
Is it sad? yes it is, i would have loved something different and more communication? absolutely... but seems like everyone wants to continue being an asshole and being atomized so well lets all become atoms then.
No joke, i was able to setup the project of the little Lineage II server i wanted and the thing did the job of roughly 6 people working on it just by throwing simple prompts here and there for different topics...
The world is becoming more lonely and inhuman so I'm afraid this is something we might look on and at least have some capacity to run locally it can really help... it certainly helped me a lot. And it actually teach me more stuff i didnt know as well....
So i created a virtual host and embraced the future of virtualization for everything while at the same time dabbling with the AI
You guys know evry well i was anti-AI before but now my view has changed entirely after all this chain of horrible epxeriences on top of being ALONE when a technical issue happens, nobody wants to help anyone these days not even teaching to code a simple script.
So I decided to give it a try and OH BOY it helped me out not only to setup a stupid game server but helped me learn about firewalls (iptables of all things), databases MSSQL what is a trigger? a stored procedure??, continue improving my skils in perl and help me create bridge scripts, recreate and entire cypher for passwords written and left to rot in python until a working perl function...on top of also telling me to ask more questions.
Im using the openai oss-20b model which is open source and runs locally on your PC, i decided to take the risk and get more memory to run this thing it runs very slow to be honest like 2 or 3 words/tokens per second but is enough to help me power through anything, all this happened because I was left totally on my own.
So now I can see it as a tool that might allow me to actually if shits hits the fan and i cant find a job on software or systems anymore (thanks to it but also thanks to the assholes around) at least I have a tool that can help me do the heavy lifting with things and concepts i still cant grasp very well..
Is it sad? yes it is, i would have loved something different and more communication? absolutely... but seems like everyone wants to continue being an asshole and being atomized so well lets all become atoms then.
No joke, i was able to setup the project of the little Lineage II server i wanted and the thing did the job of roughly 6 people working on it just by throwing simple prompts here and there for different topics...
The world is becoming more lonely and inhuman so I'm afraid this is something we might look on and at least have some capacity to run locally it can really help... it certainly helped me a lot. And it actually teach me more stuff i didnt know as well....
