Summer??
Well that was my summer so far ....
Im shocked, im shocked in a very bad way with everything and i'm honestly very tired, this insanity started back in 2020 and as the years pass I notice everything more unbearable, people are becoming unberable for me.
I cannot play the pretend game fo much more longer I instantly see the bullshit happening in front of me and i call it out and i get in troubles.
Its a stage a macabre stage I don't want to participate in this play... but i'm here and I must continue watching and undertanding (understanding what???)
Of the few things that still bring me joy, well tinkering with the computer is fun, and also watching anime becoming now my de facto way to escape or at least 'disconnect' as i can't really disconnect with the computer as much anymore and this is something the AI cant help with.
I need to resume my Piano lerning classes, and maybe begin to give it a try to the tracker music i wanted to make.
I need to also stop worrying for stuff out of my control, and my family and their bad decisions i cannot do anything so i need to step back and stop trying to fix stuff, i need to understand that im not here to fix things but to watch and learn.
Likewise with everything and everyone else even if they are heartless beings, i need to finish to come up in terms with solitude as i need to prepare myself for my future embracing it even more.
Theres a lot to learn still i'm a little bit overwhelmed but well I continue with the usual struggles.
And well that's about all i wanted to talk about at least to recover the blog a bit, the pictures are still messed up here and there but working on fixing them.
Im shocked, im shocked in a very bad way with everything and i'm honestly very tired, this insanity started back in 2020 and as the years pass I notice everything more unbearable, people are becoming unberable for me.
I cannot play the pretend game fo much more longer I instantly see the bullshit happening in front of me and i call it out and i get in troubles.
Its a stage a macabre stage I don't want to participate in this play... but i'm here and I must continue watching and undertanding (understanding what???)
Of the few things that still bring me joy, well tinkering with the computer is fun, and also watching anime becoming now my de facto way to escape or at least 'disconnect' as i can't really disconnect with the computer as much anymore and this is something the AI cant help with.
I need to resume my Piano lerning classes, and maybe begin to give it a try to the tracker music i wanted to make.
I need to also stop worrying for stuff out of my control, and my family and their bad decisions i cannot do anything so i need to step back and stop trying to fix stuff, i need to understand that im not here to fix things but to watch and learn.
Likewise with everything and everyone else even if they are heartless beings, i need to finish to come up in terms with solitude as i need to prepare myself for my future embracing it even more.
Theres a lot to learn still i'm a little bit overwhelmed but well I continue with the usual struggles.
And well that's about all i wanted to talk about at least to recover the blog a bit, the pictures are still messed up here and there but working on fixing them.
