Observe...
Since I'm stuck in the endless threadmill until december with the course adn it has been at this point almost 8ish months since I started going to the training I can't help but to eventually observe the people around me.
Since the commuting is so miserable for me every day, I have to waste 5 hours of my life dealing with it, and considering the 4G networks are busted because there way too many people, I have a lot of time to observe, observe the people around me.
Beyond the usual negros, indians, and sand people that are pretty much like lifeless goys that are just there and are aggresive if you are around for too long near them.
I noticed many kinds of behaviors people have
I see people running with fear in their faces, people wearing the masks like psycopaths like its still 2020, I see people with very angry and aggresive faces like they are about to punch you to death.
I don't really see relaxed people or happy people and I totally understand because commuting is very miserable for everone including myself I personally don't have a happy go lucky face either riding that shit.
But still and related to the previous post, I feellike everyone are in a total different frequency than mine... I feel like an outsider to everything I even feel like I'm a ghost like I got detached from our current reality and i'm in spectator mode looking at people around.
I think this is related to what alphas call the liminal spaces, like i'm still running a loop of sorts and i'm hopelessly expecting to change something everyday or expecting a reaction from people around me.
But no is like looping around a silent temple, a silent hallway that never ends...
you feel totally dismissed....
The more time pass the more dismissed I feel anywhere I go...
It's scary... because what this leads is to you little by little losing your humanity or your touch with reality (which is not 100% sure to begin with either) or seeing other humans as non-human beings, see them rather like ants or abstract elements in the background.....
Noise? like noise....
And as I mentioned in the previous post, it's something I have to continue (and I continue researching and studying about, but it's idfficult, but I need to continue enduring, I need to understand it) understanding and coming to terms that my life because of the way I see it and act is and will be very very lonely and will continue get worse.
So the better I spiritually and mentally prepare the better because also being around people that makes you feel dead is like wanting to drink water because you are very thirsty and parched and all you have is access to sea water and you gonna drink this sea water knowing very well is gonna destroy your kidneys and you will most likely die like an idiot.
So better let's do our best to ignore the sea water... and dont let the noise bother you ...
Since the commuting is so miserable for me every day, I have to waste 5 hours of my life dealing with it, and considering the 4G networks are busted because there way too many people, I have a lot of time to observe, observe the people around me.
Beyond the usual negros, indians, and sand people that are pretty much like lifeless goys that are just there and are aggresive if you are around for too long near them.
I noticed many kinds of behaviors people have
I see people running with fear in their faces, people wearing the masks like psycopaths like its still 2020, I see people with very angry and aggresive faces like they are about to punch you to death.
I don't really see relaxed people or happy people and I totally understand because commuting is very miserable for everone including myself I personally don't have a happy go lucky face either riding that shit.
But still and related to the previous post, I feellike everyone are in a total different frequency than mine... I feel like an outsider to everything I even feel like I'm a ghost like I got detached from our current reality and i'm in spectator mode looking at people around.
I think this is related to what alphas call the liminal spaces, like i'm still running a loop of sorts and i'm hopelessly expecting to change something everyday or expecting a reaction from people around me.
But no is like looping around a silent temple, a silent hallway that never ends...
you feel totally dismissed....
The more time pass the more dismissed I feel anywhere I go...
It's scary... because what this leads is to you little by little losing your humanity or your touch with reality (which is not 100% sure to begin with either) or seeing other humans as non-human beings, see them rather like ants or abstract elements in the background.....
Noise? like noise....
And as I mentioned in the previous post, it's something I have to continue (and I continue researching and studying about, but it's idfficult, but I need to continue enduring, I need to understand it) understanding and coming to terms that my life because of the way I see it and act is and will be very very lonely and will continue get worse.
So the better I spiritually and mentally prepare the better because also being around people that makes you feel dead is like wanting to drink water because you are very thirsty and parched and all you have is access to sea water and you gonna drink this sea water knowing very well is gonna destroy your kidneys and you will most likely die like an idiot.
So better let's do our best to ignore the sea water... and dont let the noise bother you ...
