Need to redo the blog
Yeah as the title says, is not like I'm gonna stop writing but initially the main topic of this blog was to portray myself as a schizo menhera ranting and screaming to everything, but this is also coming to and end, as the years pass is not like things get better in a fairy tale kind of ending is just that eventually you learn to navigate the hell around you without getting burnt at all.
Over the past few years , and specially this year all I can say is that it has felt like an insane boot-camp to learn about everything and then debunk myself with the opposite of the ideas i learned, which turned to be wrong in many ways.
For example in many previous posts i wrote about famous youtubers, people from the politics i was following, commentators like Alex Jones, etc etc. Then suddenly I began to notice a weird pattern, and the usual pattern and the way the discourse changed was because of what? of course, it all changed the moment they began to speak about Donald Trump and the whole facade they had already carefully prepared of being scholars and 'smart' fell apart pretty quickly. And in a similar way to pretty much...everything I had followed in youtube over the last couple of years, in fact my youtube feed is totally useless now !!
You might not like him (probably you don't because I know the public that visits this blog and their goals) but the Donald is a paradigm shift entirely, I never seem a person to live in the heads of so many people rent-free and actually CHANGING the dynamic of the world, is like someone added nitro to the engines of the history and now we are traveling at cruise speed.
I've been also following A LOT the movements on the Iran war because as you know the whole Iran debacle is connected with the ousting of the corrupt government that stole my home country which is Venezuela, thanks to the Donald and the january 3rd operations this is disappearing. Will be forever thankful.
So what happens now? Not much really but I guess we can say goodbye to the crazy CATTTT alter-ego as is not really needed anymore but I gotta admit in my daily life my internal monologue is still like that is just that i guess we are 'both' paying way too much attention now before screaming and ranting??
Could be! but I'm just feeling a little bit more grounded lately like in a straight line, the environment around me completely decided to oust me of everything too so in the silence it is easier to think in a much more clear way many things.
In fact, now I require silence, like....total silence that not even the computer fan in the room must be heard only open the window and let the little sparrows chirp around and think....think...think so much that feels like in my mind im literally traveling across the world, learning and waiting for the moment to do the escape I want to do for the better.
And because of that with the exeption that i'm kinda NEET'ing my days lately as I'm just making time playing with my usual gacha games and such as i've said before i'm just sitting down at an airport terminal waiting for the announcement to go to the gate that will lead me to a huge change in my life.
So i'm fine but honestly I don't have many interesting things to tell you about lately, since people love gossiping, drama, stuff i could stir up some drama I love scandal after all!! but right now is just not the moment.
Let's see what happens in the 2nd half of the year I might return and laugh at this post i wrote and say "whoa i was such a retard for writing this!!" and we contineu as usual or.....could be that I'm gonna come to tell you about something completely different...
Since I don't have control to decide the outcomes at this point in my life all I can do is wait so let's wait a little bit and see what happens shall we?
Over the past few years , and specially this year all I can say is that it has felt like an insane boot-camp to learn about everything and then debunk myself with the opposite of the ideas i learned, which turned to be wrong in many ways.
For example in many previous posts i wrote about famous youtubers, people from the politics i was following, commentators like Alex Jones, etc etc. Then suddenly I began to notice a weird pattern, and the usual pattern and the way the discourse changed was because of what? of course, it all changed the moment they began to speak about Donald Trump and the whole facade they had already carefully prepared of being scholars and 'smart' fell apart pretty quickly. And in a similar way to pretty much...everything I had followed in youtube over the last couple of years, in fact my youtube feed is totally useless now !!
You might not like him (probably you don't because I know the public that visits this blog and their goals) but the Donald is a paradigm shift entirely, I never seem a person to live in the heads of so many people rent-free and actually CHANGING the dynamic of the world, is like someone added nitro to the engines of the history and now we are traveling at cruise speed.
I've been also following A LOT the movements on the Iran war because as you know the whole Iran debacle is connected with the ousting of the corrupt government that stole my home country which is Venezuela, thanks to the Donald and the january 3rd operations this is disappearing. Will be forever thankful.
So what happens now? Not much really but I guess we can say goodbye to the crazy CATTTT alter-ego as is not really needed anymore but I gotta admit in my daily life my internal monologue is still like that is just that i guess we are 'both' paying way too much attention now before screaming and ranting??
Could be! but I'm just feeling a little bit more grounded lately like in a straight line, the environment around me completely decided to oust me of everything too so in the silence it is easier to think in a much more clear way many things.
In fact, now I require silence, like....total silence that not even the computer fan in the room must be heard only open the window and let the little sparrows chirp around and think....think...think so much that feels like in my mind im literally traveling across the world, learning and waiting for the moment to do the escape I want to do for the better.
And because of that with the exeption that i'm kinda NEET'ing my days lately as I'm just making time playing with my usual gacha games and such as i've said before i'm just sitting down at an airport terminal waiting for the announcement to go to the gate that will lead me to a huge change in my life.
So i'm fine but honestly I don't have many interesting things to tell you about lately, since people love gossiping, drama, stuff i could stir up some drama I love scandal after all!! but right now is just not the moment.
Let's see what happens in the 2nd half of the year I might return and laugh at this post i wrote and say "whoa i was such a retard for writing this!!" and we contineu as usual or.....could be that I'm gonna come to tell you about something completely different...
Since I don't have control to decide the outcomes at this point in my life all I can do is wait so let's wait a little bit and see what happens shall we?
The Misskey Experiment
CAAAATTT we are returning to the old blog!?! wha happened to the misskey instance???
Well... wanna know the truth?? it was actually pretty boring and resource intensive leaving it running unatended was eating up to 30+ GB of the main server SSD with very low quality memes, while at the same time being surrounded by demoralized supposedly nazis that ended up being exactly the same as the commies, troonies and faggots we actually try to avoid at all costs just in a lamer package.
The drawings and illustrations were the most interesting thing tbh but those were mostly rule 34 stuff too so after seeing only R34 stuff it begins to get very boring and annoying, and the few good quality illustrations were actually copied from X! (go figure).
So at the end it was just a echo chamber full of demoralized deviants and not very interesting, people will bash X for many things but one thing is for certain and this is something I had to learn too recently, unlike with Facebook that I deleted many moons ago and never returned with X i had no choice but to once again remake a new account because is the only place where I can get updated on the news as they are happening, for example the current events happening with the US and Venezuela as as you know i'm very interested about in the posibility to return to my home country, enjoy the daily explosion videos of the Iran war, people making fun of libtards, bashing anime tourists and gatekeeping them to death, enjoying a lot of dolls frontline posts, and many other interesting topics.
So at the end X is a necessity these days at least in the way the internet is currently configured.
but CAAAAAAATTTW WHAT ABOUT THE LIBERTY AND SUCH???
The idea and the systems for fediverse is not bad is just that is totally controlled by the people i really dislike a lot so you really cannot connect with anyone there, the only way to 'connect' and IM GONNA BIG QUOTE THIS "CONNECT" would be to lobotomize your own brain and decide that theres no hope no fix and you want to kill anything in this world that brings happiness or offers beauty of any kind (sounds familiar?)
So when you sit down and balance out the cost/benefit of the thing and we are not talking about money here, just talking about pure entertainment value you are receiving is very low for the amount of computing resources you are using up.
So in the meantime let's enjoy the good old blog again but im gonna be able to embed stuff from X again so let's begin :)
Well... wanna know the truth?? it was actually pretty boring and resource intensive leaving it running unatended was eating up to 30+ GB of the main server SSD with very low quality memes, while at the same time being surrounded by demoralized supposedly nazis that ended up being exactly the same as the commies, troonies and faggots we actually try to avoid at all costs just in a lamer package.
The drawings and illustrations were the most interesting thing tbh but those were mostly rule 34 stuff too so after seeing only R34 stuff it begins to get very boring and annoying, and the few good quality illustrations were actually copied from X! (go figure).
So at the end it was just a echo chamber full of demoralized deviants and not very interesting, people will bash X for many things but one thing is for certain and this is something I had to learn too recently, unlike with Facebook that I deleted many moons ago and never returned with X i had no choice but to once again remake a new account because is the only place where I can get updated on the news as they are happening, for example the current events happening with the US and Venezuela as as you know i'm very interested about in the posibility to return to my home country, enjoy the daily explosion videos of the Iran war, people making fun of libtards, bashing anime tourists and gatekeeping them to death, enjoying a lot of dolls frontline posts, and many other interesting topics.
So at the end X is a necessity these days at least in the way the internet is currently configured.
but CAAAAAAATTTW WHAT ABOUT THE LIBERTY AND SUCH???
The idea and the systems for fediverse is not bad is just that is totally controlled by the people i really dislike a lot so you really cannot connect with anyone there, the only way to 'connect' and IM GONNA BIG QUOTE THIS "CONNECT" would be to lobotomize your own brain and decide that theres no hope no fix and you want to kill anything in this world that brings happiness or offers beauty of any kind (sounds familiar?)
So when you sit down and balance out the cost/benefit of the thing and we are not talking about money here, just talking about pure entertainment value you are receiving is very low for the amount of computing resources you are using up.
So in the meantime let's enjoy the good old blog again but im gonna be able to embed stuff from X again so let's begin :)
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